Posted by blk1 on October 2, 2007
The hotel bill is paid and it’s the last 24 hours now and I will soon be leaving, first in my head and then with everything else. What will I remember about this trip? What’s made it different?
I will remember how wonderful the weather has been to allow us to enjoy the beach and the sea right out there in front of us in this perfect hotel facing the sea. It’s always with us and in this enviroment of living room/bedroom/etc. we can be inside and feel the outside on the balcony early in the morning and late at night. We were in this very same apartment last January and could really not enjoy the outside on the outside. It was cold and windy and rainy and Tuvia got the flu.
Vacation is still about the weather and this weather has been perfect for us to enjoy the place and the people. I am comfortable here and it’s a good time to be here. Sure, you are always careful and watchful, but things here are calm, until of course, they are not. After 11 years and then some, I can be here, not really communicate in Hebrew and still feel connected to the place. I can see what’s changing and what needs changing. When we are here, there’s always an unspoken commitment to return, when will we return?
Tuvia is watching me write now, wondering when I will finish and get ready for our next adventure. I have about 5 minutes to spend with this post before he becomes really ready to move out. Maybe less. Okay, for now, I have to take a break and get ready to celebrate the birth of a new baby. Now that’s always a wonderful reason to celebrate.
And in the midst of all this heaven there’s that elephant on everyone’s back: the Palestinian question, Gaza, the West Bank, Hamas, Fatah, politics, suicide bombers. I know my friend Tom, is never excited about my trips here, relieved when I’m back in the US. I can’t say that I don’t totally think about danger, but then I don’t feel totally safe anywhere. That doesn’t stop me from coming here anymore than it stops the people who live here from living. That’s a fear you just can’t hold you back from living.
There’s a real frustration here, among Tuvia’s good friends who share his passion and optimism for Israel. But this time they all seem exhausted by the politicans and their greed. The news about Olmert and his corruption has turned many Israelis off to his crediblity. I do hear positive things about having Barack in the government although no one seems to like his approach to people. Will there be progress toward a two state solution? Doesn’t sound like it at this moment. And what about Zippi Livni, our new Israeli hope? Those we trust are not too impressed with her. So for now, while Israel is doing well and it’s quiet here, there’s a wait and see attitude.
For us, it’s home in a few hours and just in time to enjoy fall in New York.
I’m ready. I can’t wait to get back to a digital story.